In the dream I had, I was trying to cross a river which was now raging where before it was barely a trickle, and I am immediately swept away, I give in to it as the rush of the water picks up speed, I am throw over a raging and deep water fall and pulled from the water. The man who pulls me out is like a fairy, only human sized, and he has a magical fire burning bright but smokeless. He tells me he does not know how to build the kind of fire I need to warm me from the shivering hypothermia of the icy cold river, I tell him to collect wood and we begin to build up a warm cozy fire. I wake with her body against mine like a lover warm and snuggled, she kisses my hand as I gently stroke her, and then gentle becomes playful. After a bathroom break for all of us, I get back into the warm bed with my kindle, and then knowing the day promises to be hot and sunny, I offer a walk.
They are a bit off their guard, where exactly is breakfast their faces ask, while they enthusiastically line up for the leashes.
There is a small park near my home, and this is where we wander sometimes, still exploring, still a new place, but a favorite. I never go to Clark Reservation anymore, it was once a sanctuary, now spoiled by a person who has every right to walk there, but who has smashed my peace in that place, in so many places. This new park, filled with the people of the city, but in the hush of the early morning, a solitary woman, a neighbor and her two dogs, and I. The best part is, I can step out my door and be there.
Yesterday I met an old friend at the Oriskany Herb and Flower Show, sponsored by the Cornell Cooperative Extension. And when I came home, I planted my rose campion, which will reseed itself ten fold, my two white yarrows, “they will spread”, “I know, I want them for their medicinal properties”, my lavender, and a pack of strawberries in the strawberry pot. I also talked with my landlord and placed the sedum and hollies as he wanted in the front. Then I mowed the lawns. “The house looks great” he tells me, “we both love how you have it set up”. “Well I guess I am done here, since you did most of the jobs I had on my list”. I feel proud.
The pirate comes to bring me a Polish lunch, which of course I have to pay for. He is here not more than twenty minutes, he spends half of it communing with Marley. I cannot help but wonder what he thinks, when he sees the made bed, the tidiness of the house and the work done in the yard. Does he self reflect and ask himself, what the hell was I thinking by knocking this woman down? And I find I do not care. I like him like this, at a distance, I chastise him for yelling at the dogs, and model the correct way to speak to them. When they respond, he makes a noise of surprise. When he leaves I take a book and quiet now, read about Elizabeth Warren in my big comfy chair while the dogs nap nearby.
Is this not bliss?